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Monday, October 22, 2007 - 9:50 AM

20 hours is the time to beat.

as i was just complaining about how the small little things about you have such a large impact on me. so angry with myself for the past few days and yet so tempted to tell you outright how i feel.

so decided to make me feel better went to the mid season topshop sales - but it sucked. end up buying the non-sales stuff. was just wandering after that to keep my mind from crap thoughts. bleargh.

maybe i was too sick of myself saturday night really fell ill. damn. so after church the next day, couldnt even finish my lunch and i rushed back to flop on my bed. felt like i was on drugs or sth - cause i started dreaming of things i wished had happen. my head was so heavy i could not even lift myself up. it was so hot yet i hid in my quilt shivering. woke up a few times but still feeling groggy. and this morning i finally woke up for real and it has been 20 hours of non human contact. scary never knew i could sleep so long, without water, without food, just living on thoughts.