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Monday, August 13, 2007 - 10:11 AM

looking back..

school is finally going to start for me. i'm glad school is starting. not because school is starting but because i'm finally starting school with an entire different perspective. and for one luck is definitely back on my side. i've got great cards while playing bridge and me no shit head too. hah.

in this journey when i retrace my steps, while picking up the pieces that i left behind because i ran away too abruptly, i realize perhaps things was not meant to be viewed with such complication. there may not be any answer or maybe we were looking at the wrong things.

i'm glad that i went home and did many other things during this holiday as well. i promise to write every week. and after retracing my steps. mending those broken pieces. i can smile and even laugh as loud as i want. there is nothing wrong in making mistakes. i may not know what i want but i know for sure what i do not want and that in itself is a good start.

as i was lying down on the moist cardboard staring at the sky that night. what do u not want. i answered and everything came back - one year ago, two years ago, three years ago, four years ago where was i, what was i doing - came back like it was yesterday.

i can't believe i'm so sure of what i want next time so vividly. this is the first time i feel that i have grown. grown to become a better daughter, a better student, a better friend. i'm feeling blissful.

i may be a cynical and yet still optimistic. i'm prepared.

i will end of this post with random things that you guys have told me :D thanks man the song is dedicated to you all out there who have stuck with me till now..

"if u want can send those dragonboat guys n beat him up"

"ya... yours is the happie ending, so i tot"

"i wanted to slap you for that"

"i'll FREAK out and kill you"