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Saturday, July 7, 2007 - 1:34 AM

second bests.
you know what i love my laptop. i just have to say it again. for those guys who keep asking me what type of laptop you should buy for uni. i say go for a mac. you ask me why, i ask you why not! :) for one is looks good for sure. i know lots of people can’t get use to the mac and the fact that it does not use internet explorer and all. but hey it serves all my needs and i’m glad i decided to get it. it has been good company for my last two years in uni.

and now with the new addition to my electronic devices family: my handphone. i think i’m in love with it.. no joke. it is love at first sight i tell you and we are definitely developing into a long term relationship. as i was switching off my handphone in the dark on the bed i realize its such a pretty thing. my personal indulgence - chocolate. sweet. i think that is my problem: i never settle for anything until i feel that it is the best for me. or of course unless there are like monetary constraints or something - then i will not be happy but contented.

i held on and consumed my drug for a very long time and i’m not sure whether i’m ready to let go. for one: its not so east okay. :) reading the lil black books i think i understand why is it so hard - so much to share - the sad the happy. life is sugar-coated when you are on drugs.

settling for second best. will you always wonder how you will feel if you have gotten the best instead. this lingering and insatiable need to know. some people think that what they never can get is always the best because there is some form of mysteriousness involve. but for me, knowing what you know and getting it is the greatest sensation on earth. unfortunately there are times when you know what you want but what you want is unsure. the lack of reciprocation yet again. so you settle for second bests.

but hey, that does not mean i always know what i want. sometimes i THINK that is the best. but there is always an expiration date to what i think. what i think does not even need to make sense. that’s life i guess. there will never be answers. you just have to go with the flow, but whether you follow the flow of the heart or the head: its your choice. maybe just maybe sometimes the second best is the best after all.