Wednesday, July 4, 2007 - 1:49 PM
FOURTH of JULY
it is the famous independence day today. who cares anyway. maybe i would next time because the nasdaq is close today (i think) i decided to randomly pick up one of the little black books that i use to write religiously in. some people maybe know what is that. those were the days. that book is like the soul of my jc life. the rants. the loves. i think in total there were four volumes of such books. but now only 2 are with me. the other 2 maybe have been thrown away long before time. i read 4 entries and could not carry on. it was too painful. i still remember when i got very upset by the: make this your worse day and then pack it all up and chuck it aside. petty and stubborn i must be. you can’t control other people’s lives. thats for sure. and you can’t control other people’s mouth from yapping too. but i still think that this line is a lie, an excuse. your worse day is definitely not this day but the many many days that come after that. but of course i must be fair. it might have worked for you. but at that point back in time it did not. and i got angry with a line that was not even directed to me. petty petty.