Monday, July 2, 2007 - 1:47 PM
finally pulled by lethargic body out of hall and leave this place behind. at least for now. decided to get on a bus in singapore so i can avoid dodgy places in jb and of course i wasn’t exactly in the mood to do anything at the moment. all i wanted to is to leave before i do anything stupid again. perhaps what am says is right. sit down and think through what i really want and don’t do anything i will regret. honestly, i do not think i would have done what i wanted anyway. because i know that nothing would have come out from what i did but mere embarassment. i mean i have been through this many many times anyway. so with a few restrains and distractions i pulled through the whole day and the next without doing anything stupid. so here i am on this familiar road home - where i belong - maybe.
unlike the passing trees, the past could not be erased off with a blink. i know this road i have chosen will not be easy but i never expect it to be so hard. wait a minute, did i get to choose. like i mention to apple. i feel like being thrown into rehab. suffering the common withdrawal syndrome. my drug use to tell me: if you dont trust me now, time will tell. and time did.
oh yes! my phone and singapore number is working just fine. sms me if there is anything. i don’t bring my phone around the house or wherever i go when i’m back in malaysia. rehab! but i will check it at least once daily. if not just leave me an email which i might take longer to reply.
